Journal Entry No. 20

By Flora and Form

April 22, 2019


In collaboration with Flora and Form Studio – work created exclusively for the Forme & Sens journal. Four one-of-a-kind paintings. A visual and tangible expression of shared emotion.

Paintings and words by Danielle Romero.
Photographed by Tiana Petrullo.

 
 
 
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My history is filled with worry. Even when the emotion of happiness was at the forefront of the moment, worry/fear/anxiety was always at its heels. If I wasn't worrying, I was either thinking about the past or the future. Although much internal change has occurred over the years, this is still a state I often find myself in. True presence is very difficult for me to experience because thoughts are constantly making even the slightest hum in the background.

Up until recently I thought this was simply how I was made; and I believe that to be partially true. But that belief, and the thought that leads to that belief, that's where the line is. The line between the essence that I am, and my mind. In becoming aware that the mind is separate from the true self – the essence, the soul, the energy that animates my mind and body – I have been able to release the majority of the thoughts I once gave incredible weight to. In true presence nothing matters except what is in that moment. When you are in that present stillness, you feel a sense of connection to everything around you. Even when your mind and body may be filled with negative thoughts and emotions, knowing that there is a separation between the entity creating that negative state and the deeper inner entity that is your true being, opens the space for observation and ultimately release. In this I have found not only an overall underlying peace, but have experienced short moments in a state of pure joy. It will likely be a lifelong practice for me to continuously be aware of the thoughts that arise which take me out of the present moment, but that doesn't matter to me. The most important part is done, the rest will fall into place as it is meant to.

 
 
 
 

 
 
 
 
 

FEAR

Awareness/observation of what the present state is; Acceptance of the present state as it is; Take action that is clearly presented to change the current state, and if no action is presented, continue to accept the present state knowing that it will change when it is meant to.

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SADNESS

Awareness/observation of what the present state is; Acceptance of the present state as it is; Take action that is clearly presented to change the current state, and if no action is presented, continue to accept the present state knowing that it will change when it is meant to.

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ANGER

Awareness/observation of what the present state is; Acceptance of the present state as it is; Take action that is clearly presented to change the current state, and if no action is presented, continue to accept the present state knowing that it will change when it is meant to.

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HAPPINESS

An emotion that everyone would like to be in a state of all the time; An emotion created by the mind is dependent on external sources; Getting caught up in happiness will eventually lead to unhappiness as nothing external is everlasting; Although this is a desirable state, with this emotion I continue to practice awareness and observe that external forces are creating this emotional response within my mind; Then I bring awareness to the present moment and the happiness deepens into joy.

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Danielle Romero
34, Aries
From: Miami, Florida
Lives: Miami, Florida
Immersed in: Painting, pottery, staring at trees and wildlife, daydreaming
Instagram:
@floraandform
Website:
www.floraandform.com

 

 
 

The Forme & Sens journal is curated by Tiana Petrullo in collaboration with a beautiful community of contributors who have offered to share their personal experiences with mental health. To encourage a contribution of the most raw and real experience, minimal guidance has been given. All stories have been willingly shared and written to reflect what is personally most prevalent to the writer. Together we offer knowledge, awareness and acknowledgement.